It is the 214 post now.
Ok, people ask you all la. If i tell you all i am going to left this world in a feel days time what will be your reaction?
- Go la, my problem meh?
- Oh, I will be damn sad.
- I will miss you like hell.
I am able to think what will be the answer already.
I have been thinking, I have been talking all the logic to other people. But I am thinking have i been using it on myself? I can only say it is a no. I really did not know did i do the right thing all this while. Because i have been thinking, all i did, did i ever think of the consequences for doing all this? Maybe some of you will know what i mean. But seriously, will i get all the things that i want or i wish for it to happen? Maybe i am just too foolish. I have been thinking, last two years ago the ending part, is it really a challenge that god gave me? For the past two years i have experience and seen things like hardships, failures in love, true love, heartless people, kind people who are willing to sacrifice their free time to help the needy and elderly, fakers, real friendship and many more. Life there are ups and downs, but for me all this are just so hard to handle. Are this challenges i need to go through? If they are can someone please tell me, because i am in a mess now. I have been drowning myself with thoughts all this while to keep all the rubbish at bay. But it seems that it is going to be full. Tell you all some secret, this is the first time i have been so serious about one certain thing, maybe not first time la but i am sure it is a second time. But i bet no one is reading my blog. I am not sure it is habit or what, because i have been doing this everyday. Maybe it is already a habit or what. I also dunno. Can YOU please tell me the answer.
